Friday, October 10, 2008

Battle

I have been battling with a lot of self-esteem issues lately. I'm not really sure why. Maybe it has to do with the time of the year. Maybe it has to do with me being tired of see everyone else looking so cute in their summer clothes. Maybe it's hormones. I don't know. Anyway, I have been making mental lists of what I don't like about myself or things I don't do well. This morning, I was getting dressed, brushing my teeth, putting on my make up, doing my hair and all the while still checking off all things I don't like. Then I began thinking of how Brandon said you can't fix a problem with the same level of consciousness that created it. So what I am going to do is make a list of the things I like about myself. Here it is for your viewing pleasure.

  1. My nose ring
  2. The kind of mother I am
  3. I remember my 3 bank account numbers, 3 debit card numbers, my SSN, both kids SSNs, my child support case number, and most of the Methodist congregation's addresses & phone numbers
  4. My name
  5. My handwriting
  6. My sense of style
  7. My embarrassing moments
  8. My tattoos
  9. The scar on my right knee
  10. My ears (i like that I have lobes, but not too much of them)
  11. The suntan line from my watch on my left wrist
This is what I have so far. I'm going to write this list down on a little piece of paper and keep it in my pocket so I can remind myself of the things that aren't so obvious.

1 comment:

Pamelotta said...

You are HI-larious.
You are beautiful.
You are so easy to hang out with.
I love your hair.
Your nails always look pretty.
I like your mellowness. It's cool.
I love that you are so persistent with wanting wholeness in every area of your life. You just aren't giving up until you get it all. I love that about you!

Now, if you could please add these to your list, I'd appreciate it. Thank you.