Allright people. I am so PUMPED! I have been so close to God for the past week, well since Wednesday when He healed me. I have been seeing His visions and hearing him speak to my heart. Yay Jesus!
Anyway, let me continue. On Sunday when the song that talks about drinking from His cup and sitting at His feet, and feeling His heartbeat I heard God talk to me. Whenever I heard that song before, I would get a great sadness in my heart because I wanted that with my husband. I felt like the song spoke what a wife does with a husband. But on Sunday, when I was worshiping and singing that song I heard God tell me over and over I AM YOUR HUSBAND. I AM YOUR HUSBAND. I AM YOUR HUSBAND. He was stressing to me that HE was my husband. He loved me more than any man ever could. He wanted me to sit at his feet, He wanted me to lean on Him for support, He wanted to feel my heartbeat while I felt His. He wanted me as His wife. He wanted me to know what it felt like to know that He had chosen me to be His bride over any other. At WOW, we sang that song again. I heard God once again but He also gave me a vision this time. A lot of times when I am at home, I get really lonely. I feel like I am isolated and alone. In my vision I saw myself sitting on the couch watching T.V. as usual but beside me was Jesus. He was sitting where my husband would. I saw myself in the kitchen cooking (yes, it does happen without fires people) and he was in there talking to me like a husband would. I saw myself doing the laundry and there He was again. He showed me in my vision that He is just like a husband to me no matter what I am doing and no matter how alone I feel. I started weeping when I was singing because I finally got it. I got just how much Jesus loves me. I finally felt Him loving me so much it hurt. I feel His presence now. I feel Him! My true husband who will NEVER abandon me or be embarrassed of me.