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Kalista took a picture of us waiting for the Doctor.

Yesterday morning Xander woke me up crying. I went to his room and he said his head was hurting. His eyes were bloodshot and his body was really hot. I didn't have a thermometer with me so I didn't know his temperature. I gave him some Tylenol and he said he felt better. I went ahead and let him go to school (i know, i know. not a cool thing to do but I had a really important meeting at work and I was praying that he wasn't really sick). About lunch time the school nurse called me and said that Xander had a temperature of 102.8. I rushed to go pick him up & I dispensed some more Tylenol. He again started feeling better and was totally bored out of his mind here in my office. I made a dr. appointment for him at 6 last night. About 5 o'clock Xander started feeling cruddy again. At the appointment, the dr. tested him & it came back positive for the flu.

Inside my head: NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But it's true. Just last week I was mentally congratulating myself for my family not getting sick this whole season. Pride truly comes before the fall. Dang you irony!!! Last night was no fun. Xander couldn't keep anything down, especially his medicine.

I'm looking at Kalista like she is a ticking flu bomb just waiting to go off. I have been praying for protection against sickness for Kalista and me.

Here is Kalista not being sick at the Doctor's office.

Please just pray for us. I don't have anyone to help me with them if I get sick. Plus Xander's birthday & party are this Saturday.

Excuse Me?

This is a true conversation that took place in my office at 1:29 p.m. today between myself and a woman who will remain nameless:

Nameless: Hey, Jennifer! I just came by to see how you're doing.
Jennifer: Oh, I'm doing good. How about you?
Nameless: What have the doctors said?
Jennifer: Doctors? About what?
Nameless: Well, I heard about you getting tests on your privates.
Jennifer: I..It's..uh,...That's a nice necklace. Where'd you get it from?
Nameless: Blah,Blah, Blah about necklace.

Okay, why the heck do people think it's okay to say stuff like that to me??? This is exactly the kind of conversation I was trying to avoid!!! Who does that any way? Who asks about another person's "privates"? This kind of stuff only happens to me.

Drum Roll Please

So, I went to the Dr's appointment last Thursday. He didn't give me any news either way. He did seem positive about everything though. And plus no monster came out & jumped at him or anything while he was down there (which, in my book, is always good). He said he would call me when he gets the results from that Pap Smear which should be in about 10 days. What the heck?? This is the 2000's! Isn't there some kind of instant Cancer test? I mean, there are home drug tests! C'mon!! Anyway, I guess I'm just gonna wait til then.

And not to turn this blog into a Lifetime movie or anything, but I really wanted to tell everyone thanks so much for being so supportive through this thing. I don't really like to talk about it in person and I cover up a lot of my worry with "I'm fine" & "It's going good" so I know it's been kinda hard for people to know how I'm really feeling. So, just thanks for the prayers & encouragement & comforting words.

Okay, Dr. Phil hour is over.

the great I AM

I saw this story on the Air1 website. It's so good.

http://www.tribune-democrat.com/statenews/cnhinsall_story_025081635.html

Let the Disappointment Ensue

So, just to let everyone know I withdrew from school. I wasn't able to handle everything that has been going on. The only area in my life that I could cut back on right now is school. I have a dr. appointment this Thursday, Feb. 14th to do a repeat Pap Smear. I plan on returning to school as soon as all this is under control.

This was a really hard decision for me. I hope everyone understands why I did it.

God is going to take care of this. He has to.