Update on the Update

Sorry guys for not posting the update. I guess my feelings/pride/whatever were kind of hurt so I haven't really wanted to talk about it all.

Anyway, so the thing I was praying isn't going to happen. In fact, it's going a little bit in the opposite direction. My plans are still on to go to college though...

I could use some prayer for financial blessing though. But who doesn't, right? Hopefully, I will be getting some insight soon about the direction my life is going to be taking. Or maybe the heater will start working in my office. Who knows the mysteries of the universe.

Up to the Date

I haven't gotten any word yet. It looks like I am going to have to wait until after the Thanksgiving Holiday. I am still going to keep praying that this turns out to be the blessing I need it so desperately to be. I will clear everything up when I find out for sure what's going to happen. I just don't want to get things out there that might not be true or not happen.

Sorry to be so mysterious. (i kinda feel like daphne from scooby-doo--daphne because she's the hot one).

Favor

There is going to be a MAJOR decision made tonight concerning my work. Please please please pray for favor (towards me) in this decision. It has the potential to greatly bless my family.

p.s. Sorry my last post was depressing. These hormones really are killing me!!

No Good Title

Sometimes, I feel something weighing me down. I just feel so heavy. In the mornings, it takes all my powers of persuasion and denial to get myself out of bed. Sometimes, I lay there and pray.

I feel like there is something wrong with me. Why am I not satisfied with the way my life is? It is certainly better than it was and also better than millions of other people in the world. Why can't I feel complete with what God has given me? Why can't I just feel complete?

A Call For Help

Okay, this is a call for help. I really need to find someone who gets the NBC channel and likes to watch Heroes on Monday nights and The Office on Wednesday nights. I dont get that channel at all and I love love love both shows but I haven't been able to watch it this season. I am desperate!! I've tried watching the show online but my internet connection is so weak, the video is really choppy and lags big time!

So, please someone with cable, satellite or whatever please have pity on me and let me spend an hour with you in your home. I will even bring over snacks!!

Loss

The church I work at is in serious need of prayer. There has been much turmoil, sadness, and hurt feelings lately. The Youth director handed in his resignation yesterday, the Pastor also gave notice of his leaving the church, and then early this morning the Pastor's mother died. Other things have been going on that have really been tearing this church apart. People have gotten hurt over a decision that was made recently. This church has split once already because of a similar situation. I don't think it can take another one. Although, I am not "officially" a member of this church, I still feel like I am a part of it. I love all these people. So many of them have loving hearts. I have many funny, tender, prayerful, happy memories with them. I hate that they keep having to go through so much crap. The Pastor is hurting really bad right now. I'm not really sure how to comfort him. I don't think his decision is the best decision for him or the church. There have been one or two people who have already made me mad in this situation. Someone has already called the office to talk about the Pastor leaving and they were just being so calloused about it. I'm not good at handling these kinds of things. I feel like this church has a 3rd degree burn and instead of letting it heal nicely, they're picking at it constantly. I just wish I had some kind of "spiritual" salve to rub all over the walls and pews and alters and rooms and offices and even the bathrooms.

I just feel so lost and saddened about it all. I want God to come to this place and save this church.