Wednesday, May 16, 2007

T-Minus 26 Hours

Okay, guys. Please please please pray for me. I am becoming increasingly more and more nervous about standing up in front of everyone and talking about my personal junk.

On another note, I had a personal breakthrough in my faith yesterday. I have a habit of calling someone, anyone to pray for me or with me whenever I come into a stressful situation. The first thing I do is pick up the phone to talk it out. Well yesterday I got into another argument with my kids' father. I was getting very angry, yelling at him, and then just hung up on him. After getting off the phone, I was crying, asking for God to somehow break Marcos' legs and heal my heartache. Then I started calling some of my friends to ask for advice and prayer. No one answered. Seriously, I called like 6 people but no one answered the phone. During all this, my emotions were a mess! I was feeling sorry for myself, angry at me and at Marcos, and just unstable. So, after the 6th person didn't answer, I finally yelled, "Fine!! I'll just do it myself!" I prayed about what the best thing would be to do and for me to have a listening ear.

Guess what?
I heard.

I called him back and calmly told him that I was sorry for yelling and cussing, that we needed to just talk like rational adults instead of teenagers, and I wanted to explain to him why I was getting so upset. After that, the conversation was so much easier and I had such peace in my heart. He even opened up to me some.

I feel so sorry for my mother. If I am giving God such a hard time, can you imagine what it was like for her???

5 comments:

Bloomin' Cactus said...

You are going to do fine on your talk!!! I've gotten really nervous about my talk, too. . . just remember that everyone is going to be talking about their junk. . but, by sharing your "junk", people will be set free -- believe me!!

I'm proud of you for "taking care of it yourself". I'm glad you were "big enough" to call him back and talk like adults!! Yay for you!!

Agent B said...

Thanks for being real. That's why I like you.

You're not like the other people here, in the trailer park.*


*I'd be real impress if you know where that obscure music lyric came from.

God's Warrior Bride said...

Jen,

You are going to be great at the BFW. Just know that what you have to share is exactly what God wants you to share. And you know if it's want God wants you to do, then Satan is going to throw everything he can at you including being apprehensive. Know where your strength comes from and you will be the Bell of the Ball.

Pamelotta said...

Jennifer, you are so sweet. I am just so amazed at your growth. You are hearing Him more and more and you're just doing the stuff. It's great. I'm really proud of you. You're going to do great at the retreat because the words you have to say were given to you by the Father and they have power behind them that you can't even imagine. Your words are going to enable the Holy Spirit to break down strongholds in women that have been in place for a long time. That's not something to be nervous about. That's something to be excited about!

Here's a bit of good news. Aren't you the first talk? Well, after that, you have the whole weekend to relax. What if your talk were the last? Huh? What if?

By the way, was I one of the people you tried to call today? Sorry if I was and wasn't home. Then again, I'm not sorry! It all worked out!

ericaprosser said...

Awesome! And you are going to do great! I can't wait for your talk!